the more i grow the more i realize how God has blessed me in abundance. a little example is, by sending me loving, heart-warming, people in my life.
in this moment, i really am thankful for what i have, for what i lose, for what i've been through,
through the ups and downs, the joy and the tears.
honestly, i'm not a truly holy good person deep down here, but i try to be. by enjoying the process of growing up, it made me understand what life really taught me, to be a better version of me.
it's like finishing up a puzzle, putting down together pieces by pieces,
a pieces life has gave you to it's place,
no need to worry about the wrong placement, you could search for the other one that fits perfectly.
and you learn from that mistake, which leads you to the alternate perfectly done puzzle.
having people who radiate positivity brings good energy into my life. i tried to prevent negativity and all that kind of stuff, minimizing my bad behaviour. however, it won't went well if i'm not loving myself, feeling thankful & blessed. i must remember that the only one who understand myself the most, is me. so,
"do the kinds of things that come from the heart, when you do, you won't be dissatisfied, you won't be envious, you won't be longing for somebody else's things. on the contrary, you'll be overwhelmed with what comes back." -Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie.
there is always something to be thankful for, today i will be thankful for my existence, my health, my religion, my family, my friends, and thankful for you, the man, who came into my life. for everything.
in this moment, i really am thankful for what i have, for what i lose, for what i've been through,
through the ups and downs, the joy and the tears.
honestly, i'm not a truly holy good person deep down here, but i try to be. by enjoying the process of growing up, it made me understand what life really taught me, to be a better version of me.
it's like finishing up a puzzle, putting down together pieces by pieces,
a pieces life has gave you to it's place,
no need to worry about the wrong placement, you could search for the other one that fits perfectly.
and you learn from that mistake, which leads you to the alternate perfectly done puzzle.
having people who radiate positivity brings good energy into my life. i tried to prevent negativity and all that kind of stuff, minimizing my bad behaviour. however, it won't went well if i'm not loving myself, feeling thankful & blessed. i must remember that the only one who understand myself the most, is me. so,
"do the kinds of things that come from the heart, when you do, you won't be dissatisfied, you won't be envious, you won't be longing for somebody else's things. on the contrary, you'll be overwhelmed with what comes back." -Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie.
there is always something to be thankful for, today i will be thankful for my existence, my health, my religion, my family, my friends, and thankful for you, the man, who came into my life. for everything.
10.01 PM
it's been nearly a year since i'm all alone,
don't have someone to talk to.
it's quite hard though, adapting from one condition into another just in a glimpse of an eye,
not able to speaking out my mind and feelings,
or even to share what my day was really like,
debating stuff,
deep talk & late night talk.
the worst part being at this particular time is, by the end of the day, when the city's asleep, and stars are shining,
i'm here, stood there by myself, keeping things to myself,
no attention, no awareness, no understanding from that someone who means so much to you, and that's all you got.
no good night texts.
well, that's the key point till i realized that
i'm all alone.
it's been nearly a year since i'm all alone,
don't have someone to talk to.
it's quite hard though, adapting from one condition into another just in a glimpse of an eye,
not able to speaking out my mind and feelings,
or even to share what my day was really like,
debating stuff,
deep talk & late night talk.
the worst part being at this particular time is, by the end of the day, when the city's asleep, and stars are shining,
i'm here, stood there by myself, keeping things to myself,
no attention, no awareness, no understanding from that someone who means so much to you, and that's all you got.
no good night texts.
well, that's the key point till i realized that
i'm all alone.
it's 22.57
my body's home, my mind's not.
closed my eyes, my body's shivering. heart beating fast.
do you know how it feels?
it feels like 3 AM.
yes, obviously.
imagine, standing on top of the hill at 3 AM, silence, hills and wind breeze.
that's how I picture myself to be.
just me, myself, and i.
with you
by my side,
or maybe
a picture of you.
my body's home, my mind's not.
closed my eyes, my body's shivering. heart beating fast.
do you know how it feels?
it feels like 3 AM.
yes, obviously.
imagine, standing on top of the hill at 3 AM, silence, hills and wind breeze.
that's how I picture myself to be.
just me, myself, and i.
with you
by my side,
or maybe
a picture of you.
